3 months?

Has it really been that long since I've written anything on here? Well...before we went to NYC I finally had dropped another 3-4 pounds, depending on what my last count was. I've taken two walks and done one power sculpt workout (halfway, anyway) since our trip. So I guess you can say that I've fallen off the wagon some, huh? The good news is, aside from the NYC trip, I haven't been eating nearly as much as I used to. But that's another post for another time (the boys are killing each other with pillows on my bed).

tidbits

I'm going to have start writing down everything I'm eating. Maybe I'll even put it up on here, I don't know.

I wrote that last week and never finished it. I also joined the Biggest Loser challenge at work. My sinuses were not happy with me Sunday evening or Monday morning or evening or Tuesday morning, so I went from Saturday morning to Wednesday evening without exercising. Let me tell you, it felt awful! I just had to get out last night, even though I was still a bit stuffy. I pushed Xander in the stroller and Zack walked with me, probably about a mile and a half. We even ran down the big hills. It was very nice!

And yes, I've been writing down what I've been eating...mostly anyway. I skipped last night, but I'm not sure if I had anything between lunch and dinner. I didn't have anything after we got home from dinner last night, though. I've realized that writing down what you're eating really makes you think, because I was feeling ashamed for having to write down "2 cookie dough pieces" the other day. I'm not even including calories or anything, but it is certainly making me think.

On the parenting front...I've been losing my temper way too much recently, and just letting little things irritate me. I felt really awful today when I went to grab Xander (for who knows what!) and I scratched his leg with my fingernail. I knew I'd hurt him right away, because I've scratched myself many times like that. It's a horrible feeling knowing that your temper, your reaction made your child bleed. I really hate admitting that it happened, but I can't be in denial.

Time to get off the computer, because there are still many chores to be done, and only 45 minutes left before getting Zack from school.

So...

I shouldn't have said anything about the chocolate thing. I haven't kept that up, even for one day. That's okay. I should keep reminding myself that when it was time for jumping jacks during bootcamp this morning, I was able to keep up the whole time. When I did the first DVD, I was grunting, trying to keep up but failing. So I consider this progress. Off to fold laundry right now, you know, the laundry that's been sitting on my couch, off and on, for several weeks. Wow, did I really just admit that?

Resolution

I've decided that I need to significantly reduce my chocolate intake. I came to this realization yesterday when I noticed how quickly the leftover trail mix from Zack's birthday party was disappearing and how many of the frozen cookie dough pieces I had eaten without having made a single cookie. So while it would be simply impossible for me to give it up completely, I have decided that I can have no more than 2 servings a week. I think this will not include my chocolate yogurt or granola bars. I'm talking about cookies, candy, ice cream or toppings. This will start today, so I will only have one serving for the rest of the week. I hope this isn't going to be too drastic!
Also, starting tomorrow, I will be getting up early to work out. Wait a minute, I can't say that. Things sometimes get in the way. I'll say I will do my best to wake up early. Because then I'm done exercising and showering early, I can make breakfast and get work done as soon as I get back from taking Zack to school.
I also need to make little notes and signs for myself, to remind me to stay cool with the kids and make good choices when it comes to discipline. Maybe I'll even make rules for them for each room of the house, to help keep the playroom from turning into a pigsty, forcing me to dump the toys out the window, like Dad did to Eileen and me a time or two. Okay, that's all for today. Time to get changed for working out.

Jillian

Okay, so yesterday I wasn't motivated at all to work out. I called Mark at work, and he said to just break open a new DVD. I really like Bob, so I opened the bootcamp DVD. It was a great workout! I can really feel how my muscles have gotten stronger. At one point, I was using the 3-pound weights, and they were actually too easy. That felt great! I was also noticing how tight my quads were during one of the stretches. That felt great, too! Oh, and I was able to keep up the whole time Bob was doing jumping jacks. That felt even better! Even though I'm not seeing the numbers on the scale change too much, I can feel the results of these workouts. I honestly feel stronger and better about myself! Anyway, I realized that I just don't enjoy working out with Kim, and on the workout 2 DVD, she does everything except the bootcamp. It just wasn't fun. Jillian, on the other hand, is not annoying like Kim. She communicates well, is positive, and even a little funny at times. Today's workout was great, too! (The only other update is that I didn't gain any weight over Zack's birthday weekend, what with all the cake and icing and candy around.) Thought for the Day: Keep it fun, or you won't want to do it at all.

Alternate

So I've been feeling kind of guilty keeping Xander inside all these mornings when I've been exercising. It's been absolutely gorgeous out, and I haven't brought him outside until around lunchtime or later. So here's an addendum to my plan: two or three times a week, my exercise will include letting him be outside. Whether it's a bike ride, a walk or bringing the portable DVD player outside and doing my workout outside, I'm determined that this kid will not be stuck inside. He's already addicted to movies and the computer, since he just recently learned how to use the mouse. So we're off on a bike ride today...

Kim

I finished the first six weeks of the Biggest Loser workout 1!!! I started the second DVD yesterday. It's only custome workouts, so you have to pick and choose which ones you're going to do. I sat down with Mark last night and figured out some ideas. My workouts have been about 35-40 minutes long, so this morning I figured out four different configurations of workouts that are 45 minutes long. Once I get used to these workouts, I'm definitely going to MUTE the tv and listen to my iPod instead of Kim. Oh my goodness!!! She's so annoying, she keeps talking, actually squeaking all during the workout! And I really prefer to look at Bob while I'm working out instead of this toothpick, muscle woman, when I know I'm never going to look that good!! Oh, and when she does the deep breaths at the beginning and end of the workouts, she does a full squat, showing off her skinny legs and perfect body shape. Even one of the contestants looks at her funny sometimes. But anyway...I have to get rid of all the Easter candy and goodies that are floating around the house, because they are NOT helping. Hopefully the longer workouts will help the number on the scale go back down again.