now

I just read through all of my old posts from over a year ago. I'm still having the same struggles now. I actually just called Mark today and cried on his voicemail. I think every day needs to be 30 hours long instead of 24, then maybe there would be time for everything. Laundry, dishes, cleaning, spending time with Zack, spending time with Xander, spending time with Eli, exercising, cooking, eating, cleaning up, working, shopping, sleeping, spending time with Mark, and, oh yeah, taking care of myself ie. showering, resting and doing the relaxing things that I enjoy doing. I'm worried that I'm really going to go crazy in just a couple weeks when Zack is out of school again. He and Xander only have a short amount of time that they get along each day. Maybe I have to look at it as having an extra little helper. Maybe. Anyway, though I still have struggles, it is encouraging to see how excited I was about the progress I was making. I remember that feeling! I remember feeling good about myself, feeling in shape, feeling healthier, feeling I could do it! So tomorrow might be another new start...writing things down that I eat, drinking water, and fitting in even just a ten or fifteen minute workout when I can ie. when Eli or someone else doesn't need me. Thought for the day: Just do it!